Firstly, I want you to know:
you are loved

This will pass.

I'm a recovery coach, but I'm unable to provide urgent crisis support. Right now, the most important thing is that you contact someone who can help.

Get help now

Emergency services — call 999 (UK) or your local number
findahelpline.com — find a helpline in your country
Samaritans — call 116 123 (UK, free, 24/7)
Text SHOUT to 85258 (UK-wide)
Search "addiction crisis support" + your country on Google to find local options

You are not alone. You matter more than you know. 💙